Most of the time, since day 1, this connection with my Twin Flame has been out of my control as we’re completing a mission much bigger than just a relationship. As 2025 wraps up, I send this message to my step-son, in closure of a 9 year cycle, clearing all misconceptions. Without knowing the cords, hooks and games that I’ve had to endure and break free from, or without walking this path yourself, you’ll never fully understand what it took and how much it changed me to pioneer something totally out of my expertise. I can’t love in the same way since being marinated in coldness. I can’t trust in the same way after being permanently gaslit. I can’t connect with depth now that I know of such a detachment, but what I can say in a more positive tone is that I passed the test. Once fully healed, it’s impossible to love in the same way full stop. We no longer love from a space of desperation, we love from total detachment to outcome. Like a snake around my neck, the Twin Flame journey is not something I consciously chose and much of it was designed to be self taught.

It’s a unique love that I resonated into, with the vibrational frequency of sacrifice. Becoming a solo journey of multi-dimensional awakening and reaching inner-union instead of waiting on a reunion outside of myself that was never coming with this man the longer I waited. Certainly not what I signed up for, and especially not with a man who’s birth chart has all those North Nodes of an over-ambitious penguin. Threatening to offer me breadcrumbs while never present, dancing somewhere in the etheric while hiding in the dark. Occasionally popping up every so often to say hey, I’m still here kinda, so don’t leave. So in 2025, as we learn to detach from those who are clearly going in different directions, I send you this message on the who, what, when, where, how and why of the 2025 climax of old energetic connections.

It’s quite rare that I need something from someone, but on this one occasion, I needed information and I had my reasons. My request for information is never on a personal level when I have to consider him a business partner. My responsibilities this far in, are extreme enough that it has the ability to suck the joy right out of my soul after decades of living such vibrancy. I’m asking questions, when I do, because it effects my anatomy and physiology and this one instance was crucial to solving a mystery that was timelined for closure. The elimination of what would be making my energy levitate outside my body, waking me while asleep. Regardless of any interaction, the closure was coming and had been since Bali.

Without knowing much about what a ‘karmic’ is, in your mind, I appear to be the woman who hasn’t let go of a man appearing to be happy with another woman. So I say to you today, there’s a lot happening in the background that you’re unaware of. Do my FB posts this week look like a woman not prepared to let go of someone gaslighting and ghosting me in the physical yet energetically feeds off my energy field if I move too far forward? He’s now no more than a figment of my imagination, a man I finally chose not to decode. I’m surprised you think I’m that stagnant that I’m clinging on to old energy, surrendered now to an easier option? Are you forgetting how much it broke me 2 years ago to call it done while still in love? I enquired to you recently, I trusted you, for research purposes because the First and Second Wave Twin Flames didn’t get given a manual for this, we had to write it from scratch. That’s why The Twin Flame Trance was channelled for the public in 2 weeks last year, while I was high as high could possibly go.

Those going into Fifth first become naturally high and can lose their grounding along with their mind if released too quickly or inexperienced and some will stop at nothing to obtain mental stability. Even playing games with the emotions of others to keep them attached as their whole emotional stability is suddenly being decoded. At first I thought it was cause he still liked me but it never made any sense. Why does someone behave so savage, fiercely refusing to surrender, to never meet half way in giving and receiving? This man was never there to meet me equally in the relationship while it was held safely in balance, only ever reached for me once I let go and went into Fifth, and immediately when I went into Fifth, never when I was in the balance of the 4D field that I knew so well over decades.

The survival mechanisms, dysfunction and drama took a huge hit over the years for my CNS to stay calm. An unbelievable pertinacious and resistant connection dropping me regularly from the frequency I’d been emitting since absorbing the codes from the sacred sites of Jerusalem in 1999. This was mission work for me that had been going for 25 years prior. That was because he wanted me to keep going higher so that he could keep going higher. He knew he needed me for this, even before I knew it and his refusal to return any energy is what kept me unattached and always on the move into the higher realms. Maybe the only thing he communicated over the years, with urgency, was for me to get to work and keep going. To pull his energy through while he avoided his inner-work, with me being too out of body by now to know any different. How much higher could I go for his benefit, already at risk of dying several times prior. So clearly this is no ordinary relationship that I’m just ‘struggling’ to move on from emotionally. It’s been energetic domination in the Astral realm for the rising of a man unable to dominate my independence in the physical.

Eventually with enough set-ups they slapped me back to consciousness and the spell was broken. Overseeing a global DNOTS at the end of 2024 and a karmic clearing of 3D for the Collective showed me where our timelines still differ. Initiation for ego death out of the lower realms of anger and hate becoming essential for many stuck looping in the Matrix. Eventually I stopped making excuses for the lack of action as I was shown where our soul was still out of alignment. I was able to finally see things for what they really were but sadly that took several near death experiences along the way with an abandonment in an emergency situation simply unable to ever excuse. This man had no care and this was the lineage I was born to break.

Perhaps his cruel behaviours, the ultimate test on my sibling wounds,  were a tactic to push away the blazing spotlight of transparency that sat uncomfortably between our Dimensions. It worked. I let his energy go, he was finally free. Despite my world exploding in production, it honestly was almost impossible to stop loving him as I’d been holding onto the vision I’d received of him in his full potential since the day we’d met without realising the extent of the timeline this would entail.

As I’d already healed my core ancestral wounds just before meeting and learnt to love myself, that meant leaving him, for me. The biggest mistake I ever made which is common for women stuck in this kind of investment, was thinking that he was right behind me and it couldn’t have been further from the truth, finally understanding the we’re a decade apart,

So, after the comment last month that surely I can “fully move on and disconnect from the connection” it triggered something in me to level up collectively. I could easily let go of a man pretending to ghost me while connecting with my energy field regularly. Tapping me through fakies on Tinder and Hinge, the audacity to ‘test’ me after 18 months in silence. Reaching again, in third person, while away Internationally was probably not the smartest angle, to appeal to my soft submissive side. The connection, now 18 months from physical, and hanging by energetic threads since the Bali set-up for closure, was by now only due for sub-conscious clearing.

What I didn’t know was that I literally had to wait for him to be in another hemisphere, where those strong tentacles almost unhooked from the 5D field, allowing me to finally flick him out, into his own energy. In doing so, he ruptured the higher realms, activating a remote breathwork session between here and Europe with me still in 5D, which I’d never done before over that distance and time, let alone remotely through a shared breath body. Ironically, that one decision in Greece that night affected more than you could ever imagine, an unbelievable 24 hours of paranormal activities. With the oxygenated air space of 5D completely evaporating over such a distance, almost killing me several times and eventually dropping me back into the density of 3D which hits me like an elephant sitting on my chest the few times I’ve dropped that significantly over the years.

As his returning plane began to get closer towards Australia and without enough oxygen left for myself along with those orbiting the 5D field, it began to suffocate. The sheer panic of me trying to work all of this out in real time was next level. All those still in mid-Ascension, what I mean by that is between Dimensions, not yet stable or holding their own, the one’s I’ve been pulling through into Fifth this past decade got booted out of 4D and went back into the density of the fatigue of 3D. And to my horror, most likely his too if he can even feel anything while coming in that heavy, when he landed in the country he fell straight back inside my body where I’d never ever been about to feel him there before while in the higher realms, with the field so much wider. Back on the GC and now both in 3D for the first time, I had to learn to take tiny breaths, one at a time, with days of non-stop breathwork until the field stretched back out into Fourth.

Eventually I could no longer feel us sharing the same breath body anymore as we became lost in the field. Now I understand how Twin Flames can read each others minds as we share the breathwork together of 5D. I also understand now, how the field gets fused so regularly if another man touches my face, looks into my eyes too long or does anything unusual that gets my attention, immediately fusing the activation into trance. Attempting to cut the cords again, a few days later, a burning ceremony left me fighting for life, again. After another week without enough oxygen, the 5D energy between us dissolved and I was starting to get the message that I was not to sever this connection. We were to co-exist in the field together, like all others holding the 5D Breathwork at altitude strong in sovereignty while in separation from their Twin Flames.

I’ve usually always been able to hold my 5D frequency fairly solid since 2012 but learning to hate someone, more than I loved them these past years actually dropped me right back to 3D and I had to learn the contrast of where I’d come from. Eventually I realised I can’t hold Fifth with negative thoughts of someone and had to learn to neutralise my feelings for a man who projected that feeling the whole way through the last decade.

As soon as we demand transparency with someone using us for the energy balance, the true identity is revealed and the mask begins to slip. And now here we are, the roller-coaster has been laid to rest. The field might be a bit flat, but it’s finally balanced and I’m happy in 4D and in the sovereignty of 5D getting easier to a degree. If not before, let’s talk again when you first rupture into Fifth, losing your grounding that you’ve been used to for so long now and then you might understand me a little more.